Compared to the landscape of my entire life, this last year has been a bit super-charged. I like that. This is the moment I’ve been waiting for.
You may ask “What is different, this year??” and I can only respond “I AM”.
Something has shifted inside of me, to know that I am WORTHY of every bright expansion and soul-inspiring evolution. I am no longer aligning with the doubts and resistance that can be. I’m embracing the clear path forward. This is my reality!!
In truth, it sometimes takes all of my passion, focus, and faith to stay on this path of personal growth. And it becomes even more challenging when those nearest to me hold tight to their own insecure ways of being.
You see, in the past, as a major pattern in my life, I’ve chosen to limit my own free expression so that I could comfort another in their chosen frequency. I had believed that I was supporting them. But, I was using their insecurities to validate my own!!
There’s a fire in me now. I am no longer comfortable to hold back and wonder of what would have been.
The future is yet-to-be-determined. I have no idea how it will all play out. But I am so proud of mySelf for living passionately, and flying free.
This morning I have the echoes of two particular voices in my head. These are the voices of two bright soulSisters who I authentically love and adore. But to be fair, they’ve each verbalized what I sense a few others also wanting to say.
The words were the same from each of these souls, and have been sitting within me, tempting me to feel guilty about the fire that is alive in me now.
The words are:
“Please don’t leave me behind!!”
I know that each soul was expressing their truth. I love them. I honor them. But I will NOT change who I am to place their path before my own.
It seems simple. It seems clear. But it still weighs on me.
There is still some old-programming within me that allows ME to feel responsible for their outcome, their experience.
No!! I can’t. I won’t. This is not my truth any longer.
I continuously welcome every bright soul to journey with me!! It’s what I’m all about. But my wings are outspread and ready for flight. If you’d like to journey with me -SPREAD YOUR OWN WINGS- and FLY!!
This divine flame, that grows in me now, is a blessing and a gift. I will not douse it’s Light for ANY soul, near or far.
This is my truth, and I will not feel guilty for it.
It does not make me better, worse or different.
It just makes me a newly expanded “ME”.
Love ME as I am……..or SET ME FREE!!
These wings are made for soaring.
© Alania Starhawk 2017