I make great efforts in my life to walk my walk most genuinely. I could never encourage another to “Be Light” unless I am willing and able to embrace that same potential truth for myself.
So, I stand in great awareness and self-reflection when my body tightens up in response to a seeming disrespect and injustice. For weeks I have been challenging myself to “Be Light” in the midst of some chaotic, drama-filled experiences. And, I successfully navigated through each one with a bright smile and very little internal discord.
But, I’ve definitely missed something on this journey of discovery. I am now noticing that it takes very little to trigger that pent up feeling of disrespect and injustice. I didn’t actually deal with it or rise above to a higher point of view, even though I tried. Peace only prevailed upon the surface.
I have placed great focus upon honoring my Self these last few days. My spirit is soaring once again and I’m truly feeling like my expansive all-empowered Self.
And yet, I was triggered once again by an unbelievably small action of another a few minutes ago.
My reaction is far too intense for what was genuinely shared. My muscles are now tightened up, I’m naturally breathing slow and deep, I can hear the blood pulsing in my head, and silent tears are welling up in the corners of my eye without ever flowing.
Why is this reaction so intense?? It’s fully nonsensical. And yet, here it is.
Please help me, Dear Spirit, to find true and deep PEACE within my being, at all levels. I free myself from all past insecurities, expectations, and judgments. I stand strong in the knowing that I am whole and complete within my Self.
Dear One, you are always trying to be the ‘strongest you’ you can be. But strength does not come from denying the expression of your beautiful Self. Do you not remember these words of wisdom:
‘Truth should never be hidden, only shared with Love.’
How often have you lovingly expressed the authentic truth of your heart recently?? How often did you assume responsibility for that which wasn’t yours to take on??
You have voluntarily piled responsibility upon responsibility on top of your beautiful self, with caring intentions. But beneath that pile of extraordinary weight, how easy is it to still honor the VOICE of your bright spirit!?!?
You have placed your own personal comfort and benefit behind the comfort and benefit of another, and then built up silent resentment for being placed in that situation.
This is a very OLD pattern for you!! It has come to the surface in perfect time.
Because you now choose to shift the reaction your body embraces, healing can take place!!
The actions of others never had any hold over you. It is only your reaction that has created every comfort and discomfort.
Congratulations!! Once again, your spirit soars to welcome greater insight and awareness. You are awakening!! Peace is yours to embrace.
I can feel the shift within my body. I can feel this pattern of limited thinking, going back countless years and lifetimes, beginning to heal itself.
I am grateful for all that is shared and for the beauty that now awaits.
© Alania Starhawk 2015