It has taken me a lifetime to recognize that there are worlds of awareness, consciousness, and experience within worlds of possibility, opportunity, and potential.
All co-existing simultaneously, waiting for my attention to bring each one into focus in its time.
Think of it this way. When the dawn approaches, does the night cease to exist or does it merely fade out of focus to bring light to the day.
Back and forth, we maneuver through a million nights and days quite casually. So why can we not fathom that there a billion worlds (spheres of reality) seeking to empower us, support us, and comfort us in new ways?
I've often proclaimed, with emphatic dissapointment, that "I'm so tired of this world!" As if the physical world, filled with every grumpy nobody and nonsensical hamster wheel, was the only world I could choose from.
Now, I laugh because I couldn't yet see the worlds of sustainable joy, love, and peace that were always mine to tune into!
Until you can move from the depths of anxiety and fear to the heights of gratitude and faith in the blink of an eye, you cannot imagine what I speak of.
But these worlds of conscious reality are always ours to tune into. Not just in our minds! In our lives.
Worlds within worlds.
They are real, and they change everything.
I began to tune into my own inner worlds of profound truth when my outer world could no longer comfort me.
Nearly three years ago, my body finally overloaded and crashed (as any computer program might when it receives too much input simultaneously).
The noisy world got louder and my beautiful warrior spirit had finally stretched to its breaking point. I could no longer keep up with the demands of the messy, outer, impersonal world.
I no longer wanted to fight for the simplest pleasures in this life.
Sleeping should not be a struggle. Standing should not be a struggle. Eating, breathing, thinking, laughing, and articulating should not be a struggle.
But it was.
Like a tsunami, the struggle came, the symptoms mounted, and my everyday life was never the same.
I went to doctors (both holistic and mainstream), but they could not give me the answers I was searching for. They couldn't look beyond the labs to see what a monumental REBOOT and UPGRADE my body, mind, and soul were going through.
It was all connected.
This was a spiritual journey as much as a physical one.
To shatter the grip that the outer world had on me, I was asked to face the raw concept of mortality. Who was I if I could no longer "survive" in this world that could be so unrelenting and cruel sometimes.
Would there be a moment when I simply ceased to exist? When my breath would give way and my son would be alone?
That might seem like an extreme thought from where you sit, but everything felt far beyond my control in those very vulnerable moments (which were usually in the darkest hours of the night).
Here's how it all shifted:
I stopped trying to measure up to the world's expectations for me! I stopped believing that I should be...(fill in the blank). I stopped trying to survive and I asked myself "What do you need to feel safe and supported today?"
I took my power back!
I decided, in every fiber of my being, that I wasn't going anywhere. This was merely a wake-up call to DESIGN MY LIFE as I choose.
To fill it with all forms of gentle, sweet, soul-nurturing goodness.
I didn't make my health a priority. First, I made my happiness a priority!
I reclaimed my life.
And this is how my worlds (plural) began to blossom and grow.
I knew that I could choose to see my experience through the eyes of illness and weakness, but I consciously chose to celebrate my peace of mind, my slow progress, and my passionate heart, instead.
If my body needed to remember that it was safe, empowered, and loved, I would do all I could to remind it of that.
I listented to my body and my spirit. I created worlds of bright joy, bliss, comfort, and wellness for myself. I focused on what I could do, instead of what I couldn't do.
Some days were still hard to move through; but if I struggled, I found the solution within myself.
I explored the depths of my soul through cellular memory and the akashic field of light. I called in the celestial masters of wisdom and truth to bring a greater perspective. And I continuously reminded myself that I am a miraculous being of creative life-force!
All that was now clearing, was my perception of a defensive, struggle-based reality.
I didn't need to get stronger! I needed to trust in my own Divine Self to welcome every extraordinary blessing and joy.
Worlds within worlds.
It's all a choice.
How do you wish to see your reality?
It's so easy to believe that my reality is shaped and impacted by the chaotic world that I had grown tired of, but that's just a distraction from the greater truth.
Only I can create the world of my dreams! Here and now.
If you find yourself disillusioned by the worlds you're a part of, create new ones.
Worlds within worlds!
Choose for yourself. ♥
I'm still on my healing journey, moving more fully into wholeness with every breath. But while I'm honoring that path, I'm also dancing with the infinite in every way that feels right.
Follow me if you want to know more!
My heart is overflowing with wonderful thoughts and I'd love to share it all with you.
© Alania Starhawk 2023
Meet the Author:
Divine Channel | Inspired Author | Spiritual Mentor | Sacred Visionary
Alania Starhawk is a divine channel, inspired author, sacred visionary, and spiritual mentor. Her gifts of clear sight and intuitive knowing allow her to connect to the infinite realms of truth and light that exist within all forms of creation. Alania introduces us to a world of infinite possibility by powerfully sharing the sacred teachings that speak to our soul. These enlightened teachings, which support humanity’s evolution and awakening, come from the many beings of Light that communicate directly to Alania.
In her newly published book, Divine Self: Awakening into Sacred Remembrance, she activates the cellular memories of our own empowered truth. In her words, "We are so much more than we imagine ourselves to be."