Being part of this earthly experience does not separate us from our divinity. As children of Light, we are all infinite in our potential, whether we are in these physical bodies or not.
I know this!
Well, I know this at one very wise and enlightened level of awareness. There does, however, happen to be another part of me that seems to forget this truth far too often.
That part of me believes that this earthly reality can be a bit limiting, constricting, and exhausting at times. (And it's so much easier to believe this when you just don't feel like yourself.)
Recently, my body was not as energized as I would have liked it to be. At first, this "weakness" pushed me to question my own worthiness. Who was I if I couldn't accomplish all that I ordinarily accomplish on an average day?
But then, my perspective changed and this perceived challenge became a phenomenal blessing! The quiet that was needed to honor my healing journey also created an opportunity for me to really hear my own inner voice again.
I found myself enjoying the stillness and appreciating the gift of presence—authentically. This forced pause was exactly the "reboot" my mind, body, and soul had been craving!
I was in constant communication with Spirit throughout this time. In fact, I filled three new journals with pages and pages of sacred conversations and healing epiphanies.
One particular epiphany came with just a few words and a subsequent vision to explain it all.
I was sitting silently in the midst of giant oak trees one day. I called it my "nature therapy." As I stared into the fractions of light that were beaming through the tree canopies, I heard one statement repeated to me boldly, over and over.
"You're holding onto two worlds!"
I listened for the explanation, as these words were not enough for me to understand what Spirit was trying to convey.
What worlds were they speaking of? Past and present? Belief and doubt? Action and non-action?
With all the emotional and energetic healing I had been focusing on, it was certainly accurate to acknowledge that parts of me had been holding onto old patterns and behaviors. But, really, what was their true message?
Spirit was silent. No explanation came forth, so I let it go. I enjoyed the gift of being present in those trees and trusted that to be enough.
But a few hours later, when I was home and almost forgetful of the message I had received that morning, I saw a clear vision of myself holding a whole world (literally a giant globe) of earthly identity and resonance in one hand and another world of divine identity and resonance in the other.
I was struggling to keep both of these worlds upheld and balanced—when, in fact, they are not separate at all. All of this extreme effort is unnecessary and distracting me from my greater potential.
I am divine, always! It's the nature of my entire existence, whether I am in this body or not.
And that's the message!
With one fantastical challenge after another these last few years (this year was just a comical climax), I had begun to believe that this earthly life was far less safe, secure, and blessed than I'd like it to be.
My physical body had been processing all that subtle stress and disappointment without ever asking for any attention or support. It would be as strong as I needed it to be—until I was ready to change my fundamental view of it all.
Ohhhhh, how my view of this beautiful body has changed! I am in awe of all it does for me.
But that's another conversation for another post. Today, I'd like to tell you why this particular epiphany has shifted the way I see everything.
When that vision came through, I saw myself as the one holding those two worlds, but I also felt and acknowledged the overwhelming exhaustion that comes from trying to simultaneously be a "good human" and a "good goddess" —like there were two sets of rules to govern my existence.
Essentially, one world was earthly, and defined by logic, order, and physicality. The other world was divine, and defined by boundless love, support, and inspiration.
BUT THE SEPARATION ISN'T REAL!
There is only ONE REALITY that I design as I choose.
"Earthly" isn't intrinsically bound to any parameters beyond that of a physical nature.
That physical nature can be as extraordinary as I'd like it to be!
Just think of how some people create magical gardens from ordinary plots of land. They have a vision, and then they tend to that vision with love and care.
Why can't I do that with my body, my life, and my spirit?!
I'm ready to shatter all limited perceptions of an "earthly" experience. In fact, it's time to start seeing myself as EARTHLY DIVINE—being in this phenomenally wondrous earth experience, but part of something so much greater than our minds can comprehend.
This awareness isn't new to me. Seriously! I wrote an inspired book called Divine Self. But, today, this awareness reaches deeper into me than it ever has.
I don't want to be that woman holding onto two worlds. That's just silly! I am the Divine and the Divine is me.
I am the Divine.
The Divine is Me.
From the depths of timeless existence, I call to myself.
Remind me of who I am.
Remind me of all that can be.
I accept the blessings.
I accept the love.
That is always enough.
As part of my healing process, memories of being young and carefree started to awaken. I remember spinning my body in youthful joy while shouting "I LOVE LIFE!".
What happened to her?
She didn't hold giant worlds of expectation in her arms. She was the world that everything else revolved around!
These are my sacred gifts today...
WILL YOU JOIN ME?
Let go of all that makes this earthly experience feel inherently small. Start to believe in the miraculous beauty that you already are.
You are earthly and you are divine!
You are earthly divine.
And just for awareness, I'm so happy to say that my body is amazing! She's unraveling lifetimes of woundedness and feeling stronger and stronger every day.
We can't wait for the new adventures to begin!
© Alania Starhawk 2020
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Alania Starhawk is a divine channel, inspired author, sacred visionary, and spiritual mentor. Her gifts of clear sight and intuitive knowing allow her to connect to the infinite realms of truth and light that exist within all forms of creation. Alania introduces us to a world of infinite possibility by powerfully sharing the sacred teachings that speak to our soul. These enlightened teachings, which support humanity’s evolution and awakening, come from the many beings of Light that communicate directly to Alania.
In her newly published book, Divine Self: Awakening into Sacred Remembrance, she activates the cellular memories of our own empowered truth. In her words, "We are so much more than we imagine ourselves to be."